Cute Face, Small Waist, Fat Ass and Still Self-Conscious AF.

    It doesn’t take much to know what mainstream media considers the most desirable body type. It seems that your Instagram profile is destine for greatness if your waist curves and your ass pokes. A cute face doesn’t hurt either. Nice bodies and appealing faces aren’t just good for confidence, they can also be very lucrative. Just look at the “Instagram Model” movement, its strong.

      Physical attraction doesn’t stop at the neck, body type has a large role too. For all intents and purposes, we are going to say a small waist and big butt equals a nice body. Yes, I know that this is not always the case. Bodies of all different shapes and sizes are beautiful!

       Media doesn’t always do a great job of asking the girl with the "bomb body" and cute faces what its like maneuvering day to day life. Yes, #prettypeopleproblems is a real thing but it’s a little deeper than what you may think, at least for me.

       No, I am not the epitome of beauty but I’m cute and have a 29’’ waist with 39’’ hips (I was not as blessed in the bust department but moving on.) My physical appearance has brought me much joy but at times it has brought me unease and embarrassment. For the most part I really like my body. Yes, there are things I would like to change about it. I wish there was more I could touch on there but my face and body are what society has told me is desirable. I guess it's “If y’all cool with it so am I.”

      I have been curvy since a young teenager. I can recall a shopping trip I took with my mom the summer before 6^th grade. I was around 12 years old. My thighs could no longer fit in the size 16/18 pants at the children’s clothing stores, but my waist was too small for the teenage jean sizes. I remember crying in the car that night because nothing fit. This body is far from overnight for me, I have been in it for a while.

       Through the years I have had some outlandish comments thrown at me in regard to my body. Here are a couple that stood out the most (feel free to laugh it’s cool lol). “Come here jiggly butt” was once repeatedly yelled at me as I left a baseball game. Recently, I was asked “Yo, ma you got a diaper on because yo ass is mad fat”. There was also this one time a girl in a public restroom asked me if my mom had a butt, I had no clue what she was talking about, so I just said “Yea” and giggled awkwardly. She then responded, “Yea I can tell!”. That took the cake on weird. All of these encounters happened to me at different ages and different places but they all made me feel the same way, embarrassed.

        

       If the outside world constantly comments on your physical appearance and not your intelligence, personality or any of the other amazing characteristic you possess, you may start to question if they really matter. I think this can lead to one feeling that they are nothing more than a physical body. I won’t say these comments made me feel this way, but the sting from the embarrassment took time to subside.

        Thanks to the way people have made me feel regarding my body, I am more aware of how I look in clothing. If its too tight people may think I’m looking for attention (and I promise I’m not). If its too short someone may think I want to be garbed or touch (because it has happened).  I rarely wear shorts and save some outfits for when I know I’m going to be with friends as opposed to by myself.

The way my body looks has had a major impact on my life and not always in a good way. Insecurities run rapid even for those with “nice” bodies.

Xoxo,

Sigourneyb